What I wish for you, When I am gone.

I have been very busy with the start of school and with helping finish our facilities along with our normal busy fall work schedule.

I am also now teaching two adult studies each week whick requires much preparation. This past week, I was teaching about being in the Lord's army and about wearing the Armor of God as we work through a Joshua studey. I shared exerts from one of Vicki's final letter to me.

VICKI WANTED TO SEE ME IN THE LORD’S FIGHT.

SHE WANTED ME TO FINISH AS A GREAT WARRIOR IN GOD’S ARMY…
LISTEN TO THIS LANQUAGE IN THIS FINAL LETTER…

SHE WROTE: “WHAT I WISH FOR YOU WHEN I AM GONE”

DEAR KERWIN,

YOU ARE A MEMBER OF GOD’S ARMY.

YOU TRULY BELIEVE THAT GOD’S WORD IS INFALLABLE AND TRUE… I HAVE WITNESSED YOUR ACCEPTANCE OF THIS.

I IMAGINE YOU AS A GREAT WARRIOR FOR OUR GREAT GOD’S CAUSE.

PLEASE OPEN HIS WORD AND BEG HIM TO TEACH YOU WHAT IT MEANS TO PUT ON HIS ARMOR TO BE A WARRIOR IN HIS ARMY.

LISTEN TO HIM.

LISTEN TO HIM.

PLEASE HEAR THAT GREAT COMFORTER’S VOICE…

TAKE AWAY THE CLUTTER OF YOUR MIND IN DECIFERING THE LOGICAL CONCLUSION THAT YOU ARE GOOD AT.

PLEASE LISTEN TO HIM, DEAR HUSBAND. LOWER YOUR WINGS, CLEAR YOUR MIND AND LISTEN.

KERWIN, HOW I WISH I COULD BE FIGHTING RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE!

I HAVE ASKED GOD, EVEN IN THIS MOMENT, TO LET US FIGHT TOGETHER AGAINST GOD’S EVIL EMEMY.

HOWEVER, HE MAY NOT HAVE THAT IN HIS PLAN….

IF NOT, IT WILL STILL BE GREAT. WE KNOW THAT HE WORKS ALL THINGS FOR GOOD THAT LOVE HIM AND I IMAGINE HIS GOOD LETTING YOU BE A MIGHTY WARRIOR FOR GOD’S CAUSE.

KERWIN YOU CAN DO IT. OUR GOD HAS PREPARED YOU.

YOU HAVE EXPERINECED LOVE THE WAY OUR GOOD GOD INTENEDED. YOU HAVE EXPERINECED JOY AND SORROW OF MANY KINDS, ENOUGH TO BE A GREAT SOLDIER. A SOBER MINDED SOLDIER.

I IMAGINE THE LORD LETTING YOU BE INSTREMENTAL IN FIGHTING FOR HIS CAUSE.

HE IS WORTH IT KERWIN. OUR GREAT GOD IS WORTH YOU USING EVERY OUNCE OF ENERGY YOU HAVE TO GATHER MEN AND WOMEN TO FIGHT WITH YOU.

YOU CAN DO IT KERWIN. YOU CAN CONVINCE OTHERS TO PUT AWAY THEIR PETTY THINKING AND TO GET THEMSELVES FIT TO BE IN GOD’S ARMY.

I CAN SEE A MIGHTY WORK BEING DONE RIGHT HERE AT SAGER CREEK UNDER JIM’S LEADERSHIP AND DAN’S FAITHFULNESS AS THE LORD BRINGS MORE MIGHTY WARRIORS.

YOU LAUGH ABOUT ME COMING TO OUR BEDROOM RIGHT AFTER FINDING OUT ABOUT GETTING CANCER AND TELLING YOU THAT THIS CANCER WAS ALL ABOUT WHAT GOD WAS GOING TO DO WITH YOU.

MAYBE IT IS MORE THAN WE WILL EVER KNOW UNTIL ETERNITY.

MY DYING HAS GIVEN YOU A DEMENSION THAT WAS MISSING. IT HAS MADE YOU STRONGER IN THE LORD.

KERWIN, WHAT IF YOU ARE THE ANSWER TO MY BOLD PRAYERS BEFORE GETTING CANCER. MY PRAYER TO SEE A LEADER WARRIOR LEAD OTHER MEN IN OUR CHURCH TO BE VICTORIOUS BOLD WARRIORS IN GOD’S ARMY.

WHAT IF YOU, MY HUSBAND, ARE THE BRAVEHEART THAT ENCIRCLES THE MEN ON YOUR HORSE SAYING….